findingthinagain:

I took this on May 28th, 2011. I was seeing the Avett Brothers with my boyfriend and his 3 older brothers and some friends. As we were walking down the street, one of Jordan’s brothers said to me,”Carly, do you count every calorie you eat?” and I just looked at him. I didn’t know what to say. So I said “No. Why do you ask?” I was lying, of course, as this was when I was most obsessive. He said,”Just wondering.” and the look in his eyes was the strangest mix of confusion, intrigue, and concern. I’ll never forget it, and at the time I had no idea why he asked. I knew I was thin, but I told myself I was just an elite runner, like he himself had been in high school and college. I didn’t know why he saw anything out of the ordinary in my body. But now I look at this picture, and I see my ribs in my chest. I see the tendons in my arm. I see how monstrous and loose size 0 shorts looked on me. The funny way the fabric bunched up with nothing to hold it taut. I see now that I was sick. Sick is not special. Sick needs help. Please don’t be like me. See yourself.

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